Time can never kill the true heart

.Monday, September 29, 2008 ' 1:08 am Y

Mix up

Everything I do or say seems so wrong. "Explanation=being argumentative?" I've already tried my hardest to think before I speak. I've already tried my hardest not to be so sensitive. I've already tried my hardest to speak nicely; explain with patience. I've already tried my hardest to interact with them whenever I can as I hardly see them since I'm working. I've already tried my hardest for so many things. And what do I get in return?

"I hate talking to you 'cause you're always talk like that."

"I hate your attitude. No wonder everyone dislikes you."

"Stop explaining. All of them are plain excuses."

"Quit showing your (sulky) face."

Both of them are equally changing. Both of them are just equally strange. Both of them are always finding excuses. Both of them are always distracted when I speak to them. Is it something wrong with them or is it just me? I've already bottled my frustrations towards them. I've already spilled part of it earlier yesterday morning (Sunday), and I don't regret it. And you said it's nonsense? Go ask the other two- they know and had seen it countless times; we just keep mum about it. Contemplate upon yourself, both of you. Even he agrees with me but chose not to care. Why should I care so much? And cease assuming when both of you don't even know.

I can maunder about this until hell freezes over. But I shall stop and be quiet for now.

.Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ' 1:38 am Y

Doubt

I know I haven't been updating my blog for more than 2 weeks. Innumerable events/stuff took place- I ain't got a clue where to begin! I won't blog everything in detail; just bits and pieces for me to reminisce those memories.

First and foremost, I had my very first hospital attachment. NUH, Ward 41, I shall remember. It's an introduction to my (possible) job in future. Within those 3 weeks, I've learnt and got numerous hands-on with so many tasks and skills, met with patients with various cases, learnt new terms and equipments, being a (sympathetic) listener, sharing the patients' and/or their relatives' anguish, had fun (unexpectedly!) learning... I received plenty of encouragements from the patients, that becoming what I'm learning is the best job, the best endeavour and it takes a great deal of heart to care for complete strangers. Their words incentivize me- but am I ready for this?

Secondly, I met up with 2 people I haven't hung out with for an awfully long time- Priscilla and Shilei! Both of them share the same passion as I have- photography; it was great bringing our cameras out and taking random shots of one another/together! It was even better catching up with each other over a meal- laughing, gossiping and recollecting our secondary school days.

I love you both! Meet up again soon, alright?

Thirdly, my 2 dearest friends- Yeun and Kit! I celebrated my (post) birthday with them on 4th September and had our "tradition" of treating each other to meals on our birthdays. So yes, I treated them! I love them both to death despite living entirely different lives and meet up infrequently. Oh and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KIT! You're finally the same age as Yeun and I! :D

Neoprints make us feel like 14 again.

Last but not least, I miss the 3 J's- Jazreel, Joyce and Jasmine. Very much.

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So life these couple of days had (and has!) been work, work, WORK. I barely have time to even interact with my family. I still have a social life though, if you're wondering. I take day(s) off to go out with my friends. Oh, Christine and I meet up to go home together when we finish work at the same time; which is good so we can have each other to talk/complain to on the way! Anyway, working can distant my thoughts/troubles sometimes, especially when being a barista. And can you believe I find wiping cutleries (at work) can be therapeutic from time to time? Of course I do get weary and pooped with work at times- who doesn't?

In fact, a fraction of the cause of being (mentally) fatigue is due to the hiccups I'm encountering: family, school and you. Well, just about everything. Period.

Great, it's almost 3am now. Just realised I took such a long time to type this entry. And also, I just fathomed I have to get up early to work full shift tomorrow. My body clock is wrecked.

.Friday, September 05, 2008 ' 11:51 pm Y

Follow your heart, follow your instincts.
Don't be deceived; What have you got to say?

.Wednesday, September 03, 2008 ' 4:32 pm Y

Seventeen

Events that happened during 3rd September 2007 to 3rd September 2008:

Turning 16
Studying for Prelims
Studying and sitting for Os
Prom and _______
Worked at JBP for 5 weeks
1 month of being jobless (I quit the the job at JBP. Lol)
Watched Club 8 concert
Got Os result
Worked and still working at Bakerzin- met a number of wonderful people there (:
Watched Broken Social Scene concert
Started Poly
Attachment and more attachments
Work and more work
Missed Death Cab for Cutie's concert (damn!)
Nike Human Race (aka Nikeplus run)
Turning 17

I've only noted down what I can remember. Anyway, so far, I've spent half the day at NUH for attachment. And later we're going out for dinner. I don't feel like I've turned 17, or to be precise, I don't actually feel like it's my birthday either. Just feel that a part of me is still 16. And thank you to those who wished me. (:

P.S The sunflower was given by Shilei! Thank you for making my Friday last week! :D