.Saturday, July 30, 2005 ' 1:42 pm Y
You treat me like
Someone you never knew.
By your expression
I could tell my presence.
To you, i'm like a fool.
But you don't know
How terrible i feel.
You will never know.
I've never hated you.
And i wouldn't want to.
I've ignored the past.
But you made it repeat.
You gave me the expression
That i'm not welcomed in your life.
You treat me like a different person now.
Why is it so?
I wouldn't care much sometimes.
I treat it as if it dosen't concern me.
But it hurts inside.
It really does.
Someday i might understand
Why you treat me this way.
Someday i will understand
I should just pretend.
.Friday, July 22, 2005 ' 9:40 am Y
tomorrow's racial harmony day. i'm not gonna wear any ethnic costumes though. haha. i'm not sporty at all. =x but there's science test tmr. damn. i'll study later at night. hopefully information will absorb in my brain.
there's full of tests this week. i failed one already. bet i'll fail the next. whatever.
one of my teacher's just left today. AHH. sadness. she's a great teacher. (: at least when she teaches us science isn't so boring. (unlike the present teacher) haii.
my class is filled with some sickening assholes. i'm not trying to badmouth them. but it's a fact. they don't treat teacher with respect, don't even consider the teacher's/other people's feelings. damn you people. for goodness sake, learn your darn manners. you should know them by now.
THE MALAY COUNCILLOR OF CLASS 2A1. i shall be nice not to name you. but you know who you are.(: i HATE you. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU. practically everyone hates you. told a lie to the senior. LIAR. said that i stole your duty. oh ya. like real i did. you came late for your duty. and i'm helping out cos we're short-handed. i think it's the other way round-you stole it from me. said infront of president of councillor said that i stole your duty. F YOU. i didn't.why should i? where's your manners? i'm not trying to be mean. it's a fact. think it over.SLUT. (:
good. i feel much better now. (:
that's so much for today's b-o-r-i-n-g post.
pls tag.
thank you. (:
.Sunday, July 17, 2005 ' 12:23 pm Y
whee!! bought the "Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince" book today! (: didn't expect the days to pass by so fast. only about 2 days ago, while reading the papers, then i realised that the book is going to be released today. heehee. anyway, i bought a really cool purple notebook. $3.95. the price not bad lah. considering a i bought it from Kinokuniya. =P i bought the book from there too. (: okay, so i should say, i'm happy to go orchard again. =D for a while only lah. also bought a really cool roxy keychain to match my pencil case. (: but still deciding whether to hang there anot. heehee. that's a treat for myself. (: used my pocket money to buy. whenever i go to a roxy shop, my mum is always like, giving the expression "sian". aiyah. we only go to orchard once in a while. so let me see a while lah. LOL. we only spent around 2 hours at orchard today. i think it's less than that. better than nothing, right? (:
school's really boring.of course sometimes quite fun lah.SOMETIMES only ah. having IPW now. my group's doing on "street interview on teenage issues". so my group decided to do on BGR as the main topic. haha. so you might be interviewed by ME. =D heehee. and, still have home econs coursework to be done. and the mindmap. damn. mindmap must be handed up by next week. and it's really difficult. damnit. gonna fail. (touchwood)
we're gonna have the slip to choose our subject combination soon. oh man. STRESS. i don't know which class i wanna go next year. cos i'm not really satisfied with the subject combination. i'm fussy. i know. but who dosen't want to the class that he/she wants to go?
i'm gonna have english oral on tuesday. DAMN. i'm really nervous. later there will be a lump on my throat. then cannot speak. *prays that it will NOT happen*
that's so much for today. gotta wake up early tommorow to exercise. haha. must KEEP FIT. and SLIM DOWN. and GROW TALLER.
damn. haven't wash the dishes and hang up the clothes. my parents are gonna be back soon. i'll update soon. BYEBYE!! (: love ya people!! (: (: (: <3
.Monday, July 11, 2005 ' 12:44 pm Y
have you ever felt that you can't explain your emotions/feelings at all? you don't understand your feeling at all? like, you don't know whether you're angry or sad. or upset or disappointed. you feel hopeless of yourself? you can't get things right-even your own emotions? you feel left out of everything. you feel like you're just like a frog in a well. no one tells you anything. nothing at all. but you do tell that person. how would you feel? sometimes, you don't know what you're talking about. like now. i don't know what i'm talking about. and if any situation is given to you, you don't know how to answer. how would you feel? what if everything that surrounds you seems unexplainable? what would you do? how will you react? how would you feel? ):
.Monday, July 04, 2005 ' 9:08 am Y
have you ever felt alone,
stranded all by yourself?
people leaving you behind,
telling you to stand aside.
have you ever felt depressed,
over something which can be done?
telling yourself you can't make it,
pulling our confidence down.
have you ever felt betrayed,
when someone dosen't seem to care?
about how you feel,
and how you fair.
have you ever felt deserted,
from everyone else?
not knowing the surroundings,
leaving you bewildered.
have you ever felt hurt,
about how people treat you?
giving you the expression;
you suck, you fool.
have you ever felt that
you shouldn't belong in this world?
unpredictable things happening,
all the more i should go.
have you ever felt that
the clock's ticking too fast?
time just goes by swiftly
without any notice.
have you ever felt sick
of everything's that surrounds you?
all the hatred and cruelty
seems like a harsh society.
have you ever felt hopeless
barely hanging on?
getting everything messed up
and nothing's going right.
what have you NEVER felt of?
me.
