.Saturday, January 28, 2006 ' 2:17 pm Y
i was supposed to visit my grandad in hospital last wednesday. it was too late. TOO LATE. he passed away. ):
wednesday, 18 Jan 2006
it was 3 something in the afternoon. my mum and i planned in the morning that we'll be going to visit my grandad after my choir practice. so after choir, i called my parent's office. my dad answered the phone and i asked for mum. he said mum went to the hospital already. then i asked why. he said, my grandad passed away. i was shocked. i asked, passed away? PASSED AWAY? i couldn't believe what i heard. i didn't cry. just tears in my eyes. was walking around in school with my friend. i didn't believe initially. but, who's gonna lie about someone who died? that evening, my grandad's body was brought back. since we lived in the same block, the funeral was held in the void-deck. before the coffin arrived, he laid on the chairs, which is made like a bed. i held my dad's hand and went to have a last look at my grandad. it was the 1st and last time i saw him in a suit. we had prayers later at night. the coffin was fully closed. went back home aroung 12 midnight.
thursday, 19 Jan 2006
i came home after choir, showered and attended the funeral. my aunt humiliated me. for no particular reason. FISH HER. i'm already SUPER SAD that my beloved grandad passed away and she pulled me and humiliated me for no bloody reason. couldn't control my emotions so i just poured for about 45 minutes. )x oh wells. then my piano teacher came to attend the funeral wake. it was really nice of her to come, honestly. i went home around 12 something in the morning.
friday, 20 Jan 2006
my eyes shrunk so much. about 1/3 the size smaller. all from the sleepless nights. same stuff. prayers and all. had to cancel tuition and piano lessons. i went home around 12 something as well.
saturday, 21 Jan 2006
i spent the whole day at the funeral. had tons of prayers since morning. we burnt a "house" and "car" and the "money" and some of his favourite clothes for my grandad at night. then we decorated the coffin with fresh flowers. i relunctantly went home after much persuasion from another aunt. it was about 1 something in the morning.
sunday, 22 Jan 2006
the very last day of the funeral. a band came to play a few songs which were dedicated to grandad. it was the most touching moment. everyone who attended the funeral gave their last prayers to my grandad and my granny, gave a bouquet of yellow roses (which signifies separation) to my grandad. off we go to Mandai cremation. when i saw the coffin going to get cremated, i didn't cry or wail. i just felt scared. very scared. but also, on the other hand, i know my grandad dosen't want us to feel sad about it. after everything was over, my 2 aunts, my parents, brother and i, headed for the temple where we bought a place for his ashes. had prayers and went back home. everything was cleared from the void deck. for once, the whole place felt empty. i miss my grandad so much.
